That's it! I Quit!!!

Okay, so last Friday I come home to an empty house (in-laws were out of town) so it was just me and Jacob, which was great, so I pumped up the air mattress in the living room and we watched about the first 10 minutes of a movie on it then decided the couch was more comfortable. Anyway, to the point, after the movie Jacob told me he thought I should quit my job because it was causing me so much stress etc. so he said I should think and pray about it again, so Sunday night I did just that and decided that I should quit, job prospects or not although I did have an idea or two about where I would look. Monday morning I woke up and called the Math Department Chair at Dobson (I interned with her last fall and she had offered me a summer tutoring job back in February but I declined since there were not enough hours to work) I left a message and asked her if they still had a need for a tutor and for her to give me a call back and I headed off to work. At work I gave the director my notice just as I was leaving for lunch and I told her I could stay until they found a replacement, up to two weeks... Little did I know that I had already gotten a call and a message from Kelly (the dept chair) saying that they had already hired a tutor but since one of the teachers had dropped out for the second summer session that she had gotten permission from her principal to hire a second tutor for the second session, which starts Monday... So I call her back saying that I will take the job, go home eat my lunch real quick, go to Dobson, pick up the application and head back to work to tell the director that I will only be working through the end of the week. Tuesday morning I go to the district office, fill out the new employee paperwork and here I am, I just finished my last day at the daycare and it is such a stress reliever. I am so excited to actually have a little bit of time to study for my AEPA (Arizona Educator Proficiency Assessment) that I have on July 12th. Imagine trying to study for an 8 hour test when I only have a couple hours in the morning to do anything and the same in the evening except I am so tired that all I want to do is sleep! Yeah, wasn't happening. So that is what is going on with me right now, I never expected to actually find a job that quick, although it is only for 3 weeks...

Work Again...

So I am just frustrated now. Just when I feel like I am doing okay at the job, someone in the office comes and tells me something else I am doing wrong. I feel like all I ever hear are the things that I am doing wrong. I have only had one person tell me that I am doing something good, and that was yesterday. Four weeks there, and only one good thing? I hate this roller coaster of emotions. I feel like quitting then I am fine and I am just starting to feel like I am doing okay and then they come up with something else and I am right back to where I was last Friday, I feel like quitting. If only I did not have to worry about money I would have been gone last week. Too bad that the money disappears faster than it comes in, even without having to pay for food or rent. Even with this summer job I don't know how we will make it through this next year, I guess I could work mornings in the fall, but when would I have time to do my homework? And in the spring there is no way I can work while student teaching. I just really can't wait until I graduate and I don't have to work pitiful summer jobs anymore and I can stay home and be a mom. I am sure it is hard work being a mom, but at least you don't have people telling you everything you are doing wrong for the most part. It would make a huge difference if they were to focus more on the good things I do and tell me things to work on somewhere in there, but I am not getting very much positive feedback at all. Anyway, now that I have spent my lunch break ranting and raving I have to go back to work. Can I just cry?

So is the only reason I don't like my job my attitude? Maybe I am just fooling myself.

Birthday Treats/ Job

So today was a much better day than the last week has been, (isn't that the way it is supposed to be on your birthday?). Anyway, I had a great day at work and when I got off work I had three happy birthday messages on my phone which was really exciting because the last time I got a call on my phone was last saturday... anyway, when I got home Jacob reminded me that Krispy Kreme gives you a dozen glazed doughnuts for free on your birthday (there is finally one in AZ again!!! It's on Superstition Springs Blvd between the 60 and Power on the north side of the road right by PF Changs) So since today is not only my birthday, but it is also Cheryl's (my mom in law) birthday, we all went together and got two dozen doughnuts for free. So Yummy!!! When we got home I remembered that I had signed Jacob and I up for the Coldstone Creamery Birthday Club and you get a coupon for a free ice cream good for about two weeks, but Jacob never got his so I signed him up again. When I got on there to check out the coupon, I realized that you can add 5 family members so I added everyone else here in the house (David, dad in law, Cheryl, mom in law, Matthew, bro in law, and Jacob and I) Since Jacob's Birthday was on Sunday, Cheryl and Mine is today, and David's is next wednesday, we can all go get ice cream together! I LOVE FREE STUFF!!!

I would have to say that this has probably been one of the best birthdays I have had. Jacob's present to me was playing Happy Birthday on the guitar (no singing included), it was really sweet though because he is just starting to learn to play and he obviously spent a good amount of time learning how to play the song. He was nervous about it too... hoping he could remember it.. He is such a sweetheart, he does so many little things for me and he is always so thoughtful.

As far as the job goes, I decided that the only reason that I do not like my job is because of my attitude, so I decided that I would be happy with my job and it made a big difference today, so I think I will be able to stick it out the rest of the summer. Who would want to hire me for a month and a half anyway? Good luck with that.

Anyway, I hope all of you have as good of a birthday this next year as I had today. Love you all!!

Ashley

Stress/Trip/Scanner

Sorry about taking so long to post anything new. I started working at a daycare about a month ago and my schedule is awful, 9:30-6:30, so I have just enough time in the morning to get nothing done and I am so tired in the evening that I don't get anything done then either. This job is making me so stressed out that I am actually looking for a new one already, so if any of you know of any jobs here in mesa I would love to hear about them!!!

Jacob and I got to go to Snowflake almost two weeks ago now and it was a blast. I helped mom put together a flower bed and I got to drive their tractor too! Seems silly, but it was really exciting. Mom was wanting some pitures of flowers to print out and hang in her living room so I took my camera and went around the yard and took pictures of all her flowers and they turned out pretty good, so now she just has to print them out and hang them up. I saw their stairs for the first time too, they look really great. They did an awesome job.

So I know I'm jumping from subject to subject, but Jacob and I were cleaning up our room and organizing a couple weeks ago and we realized that I have nearly a full shelf on our bookshelf devoted to notes from my past classes, stuff that could be valuable in the future if I ever needed to look something up... so we decided it would be a little more space efficient to buy a scanner and save that whole shelf of notes on the computer, so we splurged and bought a scanner on ebay for just under $100. We got it last week and I scanned in a whole 2 inch binder with over 500 pages in less than an hour. Could you imagine doing that with a flatbed scanner, page by page?!! Ick! This scanner has an automatic document feeder that holds up to 50 pages as well as a legal paper size flatbed scanner. If you want, you can even scan double sided, but it takes quite a bit longer so I have not used it very much. The only bad thing is that it does not scan pencil very well (which is several of my folders of notes for math) but that is okay because it does great on the other stuff, don't know about color documents because I have not tried it yet. It also has a scan function that actually scans typed documents and sends it right back into Microsoft Word and preserves the formatting. It is great fun. If anyone ever needs to scan stuff into the computer, just come on over and you can use my handy dandy scanner...